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SET YOUR GOALS

Set Your Goals! 02-11-09.. best day ever

im having a good day. and i hope the rest of this week is like this. next week i pray it is more then good but amazing! 

right now i just really want a job, i just need to work. i love my job but seriously i need a safe job to have year round and i dont think cashiering is enough for me.

cute stuff

breaking it up

i took a really nice nap for about 20 min. woke up and got dinner. dinner was Chinese and it wasn't that great but the oatmeal cookie i had was. talk about healthy eating right....pshh nope. anyways went back to my room and got my stuff ready and took a trip to my school. i got some tutoring in Econ and I'm going back tomorrow for Accounting. i find that my life is basically stressed because of these two courses. i don't know why it is so difficult? i mean i go to  class everyday! i take notes. i listen and yet my mind cant understand what the hell to do next. so I'm basically doing tutoring and if that doesn't help then I'm dropping the classes. I'm in the library right now and I'm suppose to catch up on reading, but with a computer beside me i cant help it but go online instead ^__^. i have an idea of what my problem is, for these classes, and that is i don't like to read books that don't interest me. i believe that as a child i never liked reading because it was never a big deal to me. i mean when it came to book reports i read but that was once here and there. if it wasn't required i never read.. and that is my problem why I'm not a very good writer. depressing isn't it? all my problems are because i don't like to read or because i simply don't want to. i want to set a new goal in life and that is to try and love to read. its not easy and maybe it isn't possible to make someone who doesn't like to read LOVE to read, but its worth a try. my upcoming problem is, where am i going to live next year. i don't want to spend money on the dorm life again cause honestly this year hasn't been so awesome. and i don't want to commute. i have either, find a place to live here in long beach, or do the dorm thing again. 

i have lately been further away from god. and i heard in church that god doesn't punish people. that when something bad happens to you it isn't gods fault, but your own. i still in a sense don't believe that truly. i have moments that i know it is my fault but then i think to myself maybe it is god who wants to teach me a lesson. what to believe. one thing that comforts me is that god only wants us to get closer to him no matter what. 

I'm going to read some more and hope that i feel better about myself

i lykke you

enjoyed it.. more to come

bye!

did my accounting homework in the library already and now im off to lykke li. dio if you read this. i miss you baby and stay in bed! feel better and i will be thinking of you the whole time. want a t-shirt

listen

I'm attached to my hat

clear my thuoghts

it is a Thursday night and i dont feel good about myself. i feel like i have given up in school. i dont see myself here anymore and it makes me feel like a failure. i feel like my classes are way to advance for me and i think its my fault. i believe im still in winter break and i need to get up and wake up and realize i am not. yesterday i wen with dio to see set your goals and the whole day i was cursed! we got a parking ticket and then got lost and then bought my dog a shirt thinking i would get the option for change back and i didnt haha man petco sucks. then walked down the street until an ATM showed up and then finally saw the show. 2 bands sucked but SYG was awesome! hah i got poked in the eye and saved by a chubby guy.. hah thank you. besides that it was so much fun. i did horrible on a test. tmrw is friday the 13 and im nervous.

tuesday night

love him

get some! 

this weekend was fun and very stressful, thinking of homework that should have been finish but isnt is stressful. but yet again im a procrastinator and LAZY so it happens. anyways, i loved Hes just not that into you<3>

i miss dio right now

rainy day

okay so it is about to be 7 and I'm waiting for my Accounting class to start. I'm going to be honest and tell you that i am not at all trilled about it. i heard from ratemyprofessor.com that this teacher fails everyone! so its either true or not, and i hope that it isn't true. today i napped for about 2 hours and woke up feeling really hot and tired. and I'm afraid my roomy got me sick =(. so I'm getting ready t grab some dinner and head out after to class and i walk outside the dinning hall and in the floor is what appears to be a fake ..dildo. okay i feel gross just saying it on here try explaining it to the girl i met inside the dinning room. haha AWKWARD! all and all it is beautiful when it rains and most especially when its s Thursday cause that just means that tmrw is Friday. i work Saturday and Carlos birthday is also Saturday so i need to get him a present. alright well wish me luck in this class. see yaa peeps

Andy Warhol

i want her T shirt of Andy Warhol

monkey

sometimes you need to be alone, i cant post pictures because something happened and my pictures wont let me. i have had a good day so far. i don't know what the rest of the night will be like. happy to be alone sometimes well not completely but yeah. its like sometimes you don't want to see peoples faces for just a while. i applied at what will be my 5Th location to work. i hope 2 of those like me and call me. showered, and had amazing chicken dinner. also read for my poly sci class and have about 6 chapter that are really long for my econ class and accounting. Lord give me the strength to get through this semester. 

Night blog

today was a day of adventure, i have class tmrw so i cant post pictures of everything that happened, anyways it was exciting and fun. Good day. CHANEL, TIFFANY CO., and FOREVER 21<3

post everything tmrw!

MIU MIU

<3

adorable ^__^ 

spent a day of confusion and tears. i dont know what i gained from it but one thing. i wont tell. After i came back to long beach. for many that dont know i go to school in LB but go back home on weekends for work or family. Anyways, got food from woodranch with dio and drank strawberry lemonade which in my opinion ROCKED! i read a little but i have to keep my eye on the prize and focus! so i have also been getting this idea of a piercing but im not sure if i should do it. give me an opinion??